Comfortable

Having money sure is convenient. You can coll down in cars, eat tasty, healthy meals, have a trip around the world, go to the doctor anytime, and so much more.

Looking at it simply, you certainly don’t have to worry much, because you are pulling resource from a reserve you know that will be enough. Parents.

Until the time comes to look for an income for ourselves, suddenly what’s taken for granted become very, very precious. It’s value multiplied and I no longer feel safe. There’s a lot of things I want to have, stuff I want to buy , and places I want to go.

A Crack in The Wall

It was really hard to recover when you get shot at your weak points.

Body Shape, Looks, Age, Achievements.

One shot and the cracks that’s already there connects and the wall crumbles for a moment. I sure my face expression is not good back then, because she corrected herself the second time she said it again.

Today my aunt and her two sons come to our home, along with our uncle. Everybody fawn over my pretty little sister, it was obvious because they didn’t say I’m pretty.

I don’t want to look like my dad, I want to look like mom. I haven’t got any boyfriend yet. I don’t have any notable achievement. I’m fat and I’m ugly and stupid as well. I haven’t had religion and I feel my friends distant because of time.

All those things were relevant and I can’t deal with them for a long time (up until now). I want to see after all’s said and done,what will I become a year, no, next month.

Heck, it pissed me off so much, I even got a haircut today and I was feeling good about it. Then that words came to struck me down.

Today I haven’t been able to control my mouth and I am disappointed in myself because I can’t be a good daughter and kept talking back to mom and laughing at her.

One shot and the cracks that’s already there connects and the wall crumbles for a moment. I sure my face expression is not good back then, and my feelings were bad that time (until now). But I have write it off here so there’s that. It’s all belong here and only here and all that’s left to see is the better future I could plan and acquire.